I PITTY & THANK *YOU

I know how faithful and loyal you can be. I understand now why people got so worked up when I did those things to you. Now that I see someone else is somewhat doing what I've done to, I feel really guilty. It kinda makes me a little angry too 'cause even I learned my lesson, and yet people don't even see that what that girl's doing to you is WORSE! How can you work with that!?

She won't even make up her mind for Christ's Sake! It's either one or the other and being the way she is, she'll NEVER make up her mind. At least I made up my mind. But you're better than that,..well from what I experienced..you're genuine, one-of-a-kind. You deserve better!

Trust me, I LEARNED the hard way through my experiences with you. Which is why I'm so loyal and honest to my current<3

You taught me to really put in effort.
I just really wish we had closure. Y'know? Something..
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Story of the day: FEELIN' A WHOLE LOT OF EMPTY;

So my alarm went on 3 times and I put it on snooze each time 'til about 7:30AM. I pushed myself to get up and get ready for school. It's nothing I ever look forward to. School is nothing but a draaag. There isn't anything ever happening at James Campbell High School. It's the same ol' routine each and everyday that passes by.

I pop 2 pills in my mouth and head to school with Paula. We get there, we see none of our friends there. It's always a mystery to me how we all just drifted. It was never this way last year and the year before that, and before that.. I understand how everybody should be busy doing they own thing.. But this..is just too much! I can't believe it's our senior year, and it came down to this.. nobody's ever around anymore. I'm not as close to anybody anymore. I'm never on the phone with friends, y'know..just to "talk". We don't even have our little "outtings" anymore. Heck, I spend a whole lot of my life with my boyfriend than I do with my friends now.. It's not that I choose my boyfriend over anybody..there's just no plans between our group of friends anymore :(

As usual, I don't do anything in 1st period. 2nd period was just bull, I hated it. One of my classmates walked out cause he was sooo annoyed..I don't blame 'em. Period 3 was the only period I looked forward to. Me and Paula was uber siiiiked about going to Japan in March of next year (: Hopefully our pack of friends could come, & hopefully I'll come up with all the moolahh I need for the trip. This is something I REALLY wanna do and look forward to. There's no 4th period today, so what do Paula and I do? Go to Mama Q's class with Esther and Sean-Michael. Afterschool came and I went straight home.

I didn't think I was going anywhere 'til I get a call from Diana asking if I wanted to come along to Waikele. Couple hours pass and I get ready. This was the highlight of my day (=

Spent a REALLY long time in Charlotte Russe (: They have cuuuuute sleepwear! I bought a few things I needed. & when we finally came outta the store, I spy Curtis and Jeremy! I went over to say hi to them and head to look at makeup and Everblue. Those stalkers! They followed me into the store ahahha, and they "made-like" they were looking for women's clothes for themselves, like WTF right!? loll,.

We walked around and just chilled. So then we finally left Waikele around 8ish. Before we head home, we stop by Starbucks in Ewa Beach and order frapps. & who do I run into? Matt! The Starbucks KING! ahha! I ALWAYS see 'em there.

Home at last & I feel good. Can't wait 'til the weekend comes! -____-